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i effing hate my effing life! its effing stupid and effing ridicilOus. trust me,its not good. my life had been nothing but misery. lets just say that its suppost to be better but mine just get worse. 1st the stupid effing classes here. i hate it! i cant believe the only subject that im good in is nOw my worst. 2nd, i just hate the fact that im a loner. ALONE! i hate being ALONE! 3rd i just miss him. he’s tOo far away and that kills me. every single day of my life. 4th, i cant remember..so whatever!!

There’s the list why i want people to come and rescue me :

1) im dying of boredem in my own house

2) im had a huge fight with my parents where i refuse to talk to them or to even lOok at their face

3) i need to take my driver’s licence but it’s seems that that thing won’t happen either

4) im officially grOunded! the reason? Answer : unknown

5) i hate myself so much where i start to think that killing myself is a great option

6) the thought of being broke is hunting me and hurting every single bone and soul in me

Why i’m such a drama queen? :

1) i cant help myself to be overly dramatic [even my boyfriend said so]

2) i still think that im going to end up marrying Brad Pitt [take it or leave it]

3) being goOd looking come with a price people!! [just kidding =) ]

4) im a drama queen. so shoot me if you dont like it. like i care abOut you [whatever!]

now that i managed  to write some idiotic things in my blog,im announcing that im just plain damn bored. whoever managed to live in their house without even going out,ring me a bell okay.

love love,

drama queen =)

im hepi now.thanks to him..i am.so dude,thank you! his birthday is cOming soon..what should i get him? whatever the thing i get him, he will always love me! *blush* im so hepi now…hehe =)

having one of the best thing in life is a pulse.without the pulse we wont even be alive.still many hope that they die instead of enjoying what god give us.i actually one of the people who wish the could end their life.but that is an old story.now i embrace everything in life no matter how hard it became.sadly,im emotion had been questioned by many.some people were shock to think that this innocent looking girl has more emotion bottled up inside more that other people.some were even suprised to find out that im actually a very happy-normal person.still whatever people think i am,i still dont give a crap about it!i live life as i wanted and it IS hard to try to satisfy everyone but i dont care.i learned that if im happy,so do the others around me.lately,the emotion battle had began.my emotion of moody came to hunt me but the perky side of me wanted to stay too.harsh words came out from my mouth and i try my best not to say those words in front of my siblings in fear that my parents will kill the hell out of me.i found someone in my life.someone who like me for who i am but still i cant shake the feeling that im just faking it.im sorry but i do felt that im faking every single feeling i have when im with that person.i told that person the truth nothing more but my feeling werent real.i felt bad for lying but i only did it so that person will be happy.i was wrong..that person was happy but im not.im so bad..am i?i felt bad..do i?i lied straight to that person’s face and the the guilt came crawling thru my skin.im so bad…im so bad

who would have thought that im going back to the position of being emo? darn!!!! i hate this! since last night,things couldnt be worse…the part of emo came back to hunt me after midnight! why im being so dramatic right now? i dont know n i dont care!!!! right now i want be back to normal but i cant. my emo side has arrived n it want to stay. sadly i want it to stay! being emo is fun when people couldnt understand u. i mean,i want people to not be able to read me. i want to be the one that stand behind and not getting all the stupid attention!!! i love the attention but too much of it, will make my dark side came to life. n yes, you dont want to see my dark side. growing up was pain in my ass…have you ever thought that this seemingly innocent looking girl had actually grew up in misery? i hate my childhood!!!!not being able to make friends with people just because of my skin colour sucks!!!!!among my friends i felt useless…the feeling still hunt me till now.my life is surrrounded by beautiful and smart people who seem to get EVERYTHING they want!im not complaining but im cursing to the people who make me feel so low. think bout this,your parents said nasty things to you,while your friends make you felt that life is a living hell!!!of course i can get all emo!whatever!!!!im happy now but because of something that happen last night,im all emo again!to the people who tried their best making sure im not emo, im sorry.i disappoint you! but my mood will change after tonight.im going out with my friends and try to relax.forget all the things that happen to me and move on..nah!!!!that wont happen!life stink!!!!